I am going to apologize in advance for a sort of depressing post coming up.
My post yesterday was to do with Mandy going missing and today I'm thinking that maybe she had the right idea. Why can't we just run away / get taken when life gets hard or parents suck? Speaking of which, I am so tempted to pack a bag and just beat it. I don't know where I would go, but seriously who cares? When you are all alone it doesn't matter about where you go, just what you do and who your with. In this case it would be no one. Which would be a bonus.
Have you ever just wanted to disappear and see who really gives a shit? I do . . . but I would never be able to do it because I would have to leave my friends. Usually I would include my family in that scenario, but since my family kind of sucks at the moment, any place would be better than here.
I don't know if many of you have ever thought about / almost / attempted suicide. I know that I have. I have come so close to actually following through with it, but it's weird how at the point when your life would end, you all of a sudden feel more peaceful and realize how worthwhile life is. Not everyone thinks this, obviously, or else they wouldn't have committed suicide.
Other times, I wish that I had cancer. Then I could really see who cared about me and who just pretends to care about me just for the show. Although, if I had cancer it would be difficult to see who cared, because it would seem "right" to care for me.
One thing I REALLY do not like is when you have been out all day, and when you come home you are in trouble for something totally random.
Current Quote: "Use what talents you possess; the woods would be very silent if no birds sang except those that sang best." - Henry Van Dyke
Current Song: What the Hell by Avril Lavigne
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