Love Snow

Hello!
Well I am much cheerier this morning; sorry to everyone who thought my last post was kind of a downer, but this one is going to be more jubilant.

Have you ever noticed that the snow is like love? They are both very similar. When snow first falls, it looks perfect and you want to be careful as to not disturb it and mess it up; same with love, you do not want it to end so you try to protect and conserve it.

Also, when you look out your window at the beautiful snow, you can't help but think that it makes everything look more beautiful; how it covers it all with a thin layer inviting you out. This is like love because when you see love, you notice how it makes the lovers look more beautiful and they glow; also, it makes you wish that you had love, you want to see what it's like.

It can also be like a snow storm and you are stuck in the middle of it; snow storms are freezing cold and there is chaos all around you, it is uncontrollable. Love can be cold, and it sure as hell can be chaotic; and the one thing everyone says about love is that it is uncontrollable, you don't think before you fall, you just do.

There are many more examples of snow and love and their similarities, but it is up to you to think of them. You can comment if you have any other idea's of how snow and love are similar, it would be interesting to see what you think. :)

And I have been able to write another post because the power was out at school this morning so it got cancelled, but apparently 45 minutes after they cancelled it the power came back on! That sucks.

Current Quote: Let no one who loves be called altogether unhappy; even love unreturned has its rainbow. - Eaton Stannard Barret

Current Song: Everybody by Keith Urban

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Just to Get High

Hey.
Have you ever felt so . . . numb that everything you do, you can't muster up the energy to at least pretend to be happy? Well that is how I am feeling as of now. I don't even know why; actually I do know why, but it's really stupid.

Today at school, I was wandering around in the halls with Hendrika, and we walked past the front foyer where Nick was hanging out with his friends. Anyways, are we walked by I could totally smell something disgusting; turns out that it was some sort of drugs (cigarette or weed). And it was on Nick. I mean, I already knew that he did smoke and stuff, but it's a whole other element when I actually witness the stench on him. It actually broke my heart, I know its cliche and such; but I could feel my heart ripping out of my chest and totally going out to him. I wish that I was better friends with him so that I could go over and smack his head and say "What the hell are you doing?! You are going to kill yourself one day and that will leave a certain girl very depressed. Stop being an ass and start being an individual!" But of course, I just walked by and glanced at him once in a while, but he didn't notice. He never will.

This song was shown to me by my best friend, Sarah, and I will post the lyrics to it down below. Look at them.

Last Call by Lee Ann Womack

I recognized your number,

It's burned into my brain,

Felt my heart beating faster,

Every time it rang.

Some things never change,

That's why I didn't answer.

I bet you're in a bar,

Listening to a country song.

Glass of Johnny Walker Red,

With no one to take you home.

They're probably closing down,

Saying, "No more alcohol."

I bet you're in a bar

'Cause I'm always your last call.

I don't need to check that message.

I know what it says.

"Baby, I still love you,"

Don't mean nothing when there's whiskey on your breath.

That's the only love I get.

So if you're calling.

I bet you're in a bay

Listening to a cheatin' song

Glass of Johnny Walker Red

With no one to take you home

They're probably closing down

Saying, "No more alcohol"

I bet you're in a bar,

'Cause I'm always your last-

Call me crazy but

I think maybe

We've had our last call.

I bet you're in a bar.

It's always the same old song.

That Johnny Walker Red,

By now it's almost gone.

But baby, I won't be there

To catch you when you fall.

I bet you're in a bar

'Cause I'm always your last call.

Man, oh man, do I ever wish I was more confident sometimes; just so I could go and talk to him like a friend or something. Just to make conversation. And I also wish that I was more everything, beautiful, confident, funny, etc. then I think that he would like me, or at least look twice at me.

I'm stupid for thinking that though. Dang.

Sorry for being a downer today . . .

Current Quote: A heartbreak is a blessing from God. It's just his way of letting you realize he saved you from the wrong one. - Unknown

Current Song: Stupid Boy by Keith Urban

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What's Going On?

Hello Everyone!

I don't know what the weather is like where you are, but where I am there is so much snow; around four inches. Wow! :)

My family and I volunteer at this placed called NightShift Street Ministries which is an organization that is sort of like a soup kitchen, but we are actually outside with everyone and interacting with them. We have a food trailer and a clothing trailer also we have two tables for drinks and dessert.

Anyways, tonight was our night to go out and volunteer and we did. It was a great night, minus the freezing cold weather that I totally was NOT prepared for; I was on drink duty (as usual), which rocked. That was very uneventful, nothing really happened that is worth taking note of, except for a little boy was there, he was around eight to ten and he wanted hot chocolate, but we ran out so more was being made. He was hanging around with his dad waiting to get some, and then when the hot chocolate was brought out to us he walked to the end of a very large line of people to wait. As he passed me I asked him if he wanted hot chocolate, but he said "I am going to wait my turn." I kept looking back at him and over at his dad who was sitting on a boulder to the left of me; I think that God nudged me and I grabbed a cup and filled it with hot chocolate and I asked his dad if the boy would want marsh-mellows and he nodded; so I gave him that cup and he was so grateful. It was totally heart-warming; totally a God-moment. :)

After that, before the dessert was given, we had a prayer circle where a whole bunch of people (volunteers and street-friends) join hands and we pray for their problems and stuff, pretty cool. Anyways, I was standing there holding hands with two volunteers when BJ (a family friend-ish, a year younger than me, pretty cool guy), Michael, and two of Michael's friends (Logan and Christian) came and joined our group. We all made more room for them and they went beside me, so now it was ordered like this: Christian, Michael, Logan, me, and BJ; all holding hands. Halfway through the prayer BJ turns to me and he says, "are you really that cold?" and I looked at him like what? And he said "well your shivering and stuff . . . ." and I nudged him with my shoulder and glared at him, but he like grabbed my hand more, if that makes sense; but it totally warmed me up a little.

After the prayer circle, we went back to serving drinks and dessert, nothing exciting happened. Afterwards, however, a guy named Stephen/Steven came and got a drink and we started talking. It was amazing to hear his story and how he totally hadn't planned to be on the street, he used to be a very successful businessman, but then he had a brutal breakup and he turned to drugs, and then a whole bunch of things happened, resulting in him being on the streets. It was really heart-breaking for me because I have been so blessed with so much things and it is hard to comprehend that it could all be gone in a matter of choices. Man, oh man.

I will now update you on my week.

Well, my best friend, Sarah, came back from a too-long vacation to Arizona and California for two weeks; she came back and made my life much better. For one, she gave the guy I like my number, which normally I would have been pissed about, but he actually texted me and we had a little conversation, so it was all fine.

Yesterday, the Fantastic Four (Alex, Sarah, Hendrika, and me) had an adventure; we technically skipped school for the first time EVER yesterday (I know we are in eleventh grade and all, but still!), but it was a very memorable experience. :)

To let you know, I like this guy named Nick; at first, second, and third glance there is not much to him. I don't even understand why I like him as much as I do, but I like him none the less. I have liked him since the first day of school in September, when he sat next to me in gym class (which I ended up quitting, dammit.) He has amazing, deep blue eyes that make me loose my breath each time I look into them. He is in twelfth grade. He has brown hair that is hardly ever neat and tidy; which is a nice touch. He is skinny and he has braces. I don't really know a lot about him, which is totally bad, but I think that he is nice, funny . . . and that is all I can think of because I hardly know him, which is incredibly stupid, I know. We have a lot in common, we both: play soccer, listen to country music, like Nickelback; and he drives a truck. :)

I know I shouldn't like him, for so many reasons including his party habits, the fact that he smokes and drinks, and the fact that I barely know him; but I can't explain why I am so damn attracted to him. It is very frustrating, especially because there is no chance that we will ever go out; mostly because he doesn't even notice me and if he did, he wouldn't want to date someone like me.

If anyone wants to get to know me a little bit more from before, around three years ago, you can check out a blog that I used to have, but have forgotten the information to use it. Here is the link: http://my-random-life-kat.blogspot.com/

Current Quote: When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me." - Erma Bombeck

Current Song: Lead Me by Sanctus Real

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Remembrance

Hello everyone!

So many holidays have come into my household these past few days, such as Remembrance Day and Christmas. Well those are all of the holidays; but that is more than most house's have!

I have been dreading Remembrance Day for a long time because I now understand the meaning of what November 11 is all about. Surprisingly, I didn't cry once that whole day; not even during The Notebook! Which I cry during every time I see it. I think my problem was that I distracted myself with so many other things so that I totally ignored the fact that it was an extremely sad day. I distracted myself with things like: homework, friends, etc. My friend Alex came over for a sleepover and we did so much girly things, it was surprisingly fun. We talked in my room for a while, ate dinner, got driven to Walmart, wandered around Walmart, bought hair-dye and face masks, walked home from Walmart.

Me Before ^

Alex Before ^

After we got home we went up to my room and started the dying process. First I dyed her hair because we both had never done it before and she was really nervous; as you can see from the pictures - her hair is much shorter and thinner than mine. So I finished her hair in around ten minutes, and it took her twenty-two minutes to do mine! She was freaking out because she is very anal about these things.

Both of us after^

Also, it is Christmas in my house because we just set up our Christmas tree which is 12ft tall. It is beautiful and artificial; I absolutely love this time of year because Christmas is my favourite. It is not my favourite because of all the presents and such, but because of the excessive family time, the wonderful music, and, of course, the warm fuzzy feeling. We (my family and I) have only set up the Christmas tree because my mom and Maggie went to Cannon Beach, Oregon (I'm so jealous) for her "sex weekend," more like her purity weekend, but whatever. Anyways, we are going to finish decorating tomorrow and I am VERY excited. :)

Until later . . .

Current Quote: Greater love has no one this, to lay down one's life for one's friends. - John 15:13

Current Song: One More Day by Diamond Rio

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Welcome

Hello everyone and welcome to my blog. Since we are both virtually new here, I thought that I might as well introduce myself so that when you read my upcoming blogs, you will not be too surprised.

I am the second child from my mother, fourth from my father. There are six people in my immediate family (eight if you include my dad's two daughters from his first marriage). I have an older brother named Ryan, a younger brother named Michael, and a younger sister named Maggie.

I love animals; but my top three are: horses, cats, and dogs. My family has one dog named Clifford, four cats (O'Malley, Belle, Starr, and Owl). We also have two bunnies, named Easy Mac and Matrix.

Favourites --

• Colour: green
• Numbers: 19, 21
• Season: all of them
• Weather: everything
• Soda: pepsi
• Drink: water, skim milk, orange juice with pulp
• Country: United States
• Food: mild butter chicken
• Snack: popcorn
• Sport to Play: soccer and basketball
• Sport to Watch: hockey and football
• Quote: I love so many quotes, I can't pick just one
• Song: anything country or Nickelback basically
• Candy Bar: bounty

I act like I am confident in myself, but in reality I wish I was anyone BUT me. I don't like very many things about myself; it's a surprise that I have three best friends that seem to love me. God has blessed me with them.

I am very into family; I believe that if you have no family, you have nothing. I know that is harsh, but I think that for me it's easy to say that because I have family everywhere I go and no one in my family that is close to me has died yet. But I also think that if you have no family, that is one thing that you would probably want the most; you would try to get married to someone and create a family with them.

I am very close to my mom, she is such a great supporter and God has blessed me with her. I am also close to my siblings, but we argue a lot because we are so alike that we clash. Same deal with my dad. I don't have anyone in my family that I have a huge issue with, which is also a huge blessing from God.

I have three best friends; their name's are: Sarah, Hendrika (hen-dree-kah), and Alex. We call ourselves the "Fantastic Four," kind of like that movie, but we don't have super powers. :)

That is enough about me for now, and I will be leaving you with my "Quote of the Day" and my "Song of the Day".

Quote of the Day: I cannot give you the formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure: try to please everybody. - Herbert Bayard Swope

Song of the Day: I Still Do by Paul Brandt

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